January 2010
26 posts
cicadas.
‘they live under the damp darkness of soil in silence for seven long years. suck the juice from roots of trees and turn their blind underground eyes skyward, to dream of what they’ve never seen. for seven long years they churn in the ground their bodies white and tender, scrape their way through the soil on two scythed arms, with serrated edges. after seven years of silence and darkness, they dig...
Jan 31st
“Dont you see Me watching you?” He asks, His laughter thinly veiled. I feel simultaneous terror, exhilaration, and amused. He is funny…and watchful. Something He once told me is ringing in my ears…”I’ve known you forever.” Suddenly I feel so seen. He is a witness to my entire life, from the knitting of my bones to my tiniest discontentment, my most secret joy. How strange and beautiful to be seen,...
Jan 31st
i’m going as far as these crooked legs take me. i’m studying for the invisible children that can’t.
Jan 26th
these are dangerous prayers, but they are needed
let’s do something new in the christian church. let’s run at Him and not from Him. God who is light, expose me to my core so i can be healed.
Jan 25th
awake
sir, you wish to serve God and go to heaven? the bible knows nothing of solitary religion. the bible knows nothing of “me and Jesus.” the bible knows only of “Jesus and us.” friendship with God is what i was made for. i must give up everything. alas, this is a marriage for life. if we want to have a union with Jesus, we have to have a union with each other.
Jan 25th
daylight
it is a cold winter, and she is washing her hands in the sink and her man gets home with the groceries and she asks him if he closed the garage door and he says he didn’t so she goes outside to close the door, and her hands get frozen to the garage door and then she calls for help and her man comes out and is worried so he starts to use his tongue to try and warm it up so that the ice will...
Jan 24th
“Welcome, Prince,” said Aslan. “Do you feel yourself sufficient to take up the Kingship of Narnia?” “I — I don’t think I do, Sir,” said Caspian. “I’m only a kid.” “Good,” said Aslan. “If you had felt yourself sufficient, it would have been a proof that you were not.”
Jan 24th
invisible children
i hate that i am numb to dead bodies and atrocities when they are on a screen or in a photo. i am slowly conditioning myself to pretend i’m there.
Jan 24th
Jan 19th
my mind just exploded. transformation is stirring my soul.
Jan 15th
recklessness
“What is, therefore, our task today? Shall I answer: ‘Faith, hope, and love’? That sounds beautiful. But I would say — courage. No, even that is not challenging enough to be the whole truth. Our task today is recklessness. For what we Christians lack is not psychology or literature…we lack a holy rage — the recklessness which comes from the knowledge of God and humanity. The...
Jan 14th
Jan 14th
bull shit. we were called to love others... →
Jan 14th
who told you that
“I wonder how many times God has the same objection when He hears the lies we believe: Who told you that? Who told you weren’t capable? Who told you one little compromise wouldn’t hurt? Who told you you’d never accomplish anything significant? Who told you it was too late to start over? Who told you that you couldn’t be forgiven? Who told you that you had to settle for that? Who told you you’d...
Jan 14th
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Jan 12th
bluebird
there’s a bluebird in my heart that wants to get out but I’m too tough for him, I say, stay in there, I’m not going to let anybody see you. there’s a bluebird in my heart that wants to get out but I pur whiskey on him and inhale cigarette smoke and the whores and the bartenders and the grocery clerks never know that he’s in there. there’s a bluebird in my heart...
Jan 12th
yes
i asked jacob how he feels about north america. he said, “i wish i had invented the A-bomb and patented it so i could drop one on it.”
Jan 11th
when heaven touches earth
tonight at awakening, i learned about elijah’s experience on mount carmel. i was immediately asked, “what would you be willing to do to avert a catastrophe?” i thought, “i plan on living my life in destructive places. i need to start living faithfully now, even if i am not in war and conflict zones, as much as i wish to be in them now.” i learned about the baal...
Jan 11th
masters
i want a phd in friendship.
Jan 10th
all joy escapes in the dark
just my guitar and i playing into the night. i miss leading worship.
Jan 9th
just give me a light for my path
iamacatlady: show me the parts of my heart only you can see.
Jan 9th
i want to know how to fly.
Jan 7th
Jan 3rd
urgency
“What are we doing here? It is only a matter of time! My lungs shout to me, my slender thighs. There are mountains I will be too tired to climb later. Yet I still only look at them now. I sleep. I keep indoors when I ought not. The world of youth and beauty is as short a life as a plucked flower. I am plucked. You are plucked. The only possible space to do nothing was the womb.” -...
Jan 2nd